SLEEPER TRANSITION
There’s something I’ve been carrying in my spirit for a while now. As my blog family, it’s only right that I share this with you. It’s not a secret. More of a revelation. Before going any further, allow me to wish you a happy holiday season. May your spirits be high. May joy and health overwhelm your soul. May you be at total peace during this season as you transfer into the next year. Speaking of transferring into the next year. I hope you’ve set time aside to set your goals for 2024. You all know how big I am on goal setting. With the new year being a few days away, I encourage you to take inventory of every aspect of your life. Be completely honest with yourself and make changes accordingly. I’d love to hear some of your goals. Feel free to email me. I look forward to hearing from you.
OKAYYYYY let’s dive in. Shall we?. I’ve been in a battle. I’m talking about a consistent fight with the old me and the me I aim to be. Some of you who know me really well would attest that I am a risk taker. One who lives life to the fullest. I’m that person who do and asks for forgiveness later. If you’ve been following me, you know that a lot has happened in the last two years from owning businesses, to mothering and everything in between. It's fair to say life is lifing. Don’t misunderstand me, I enjoy every aspect of my blessings; and I pray to never become ungrateful. However, I’ve realized that I am struggling to hold on to a version of myself that I used to be which no longer serves me. I’ve come to such realization because some things I used to take pleasure in are no longer an interest to me. Some people have been blocked, some tough decisions were made, simply because I'm at a different place in my life. It's true! My therapist confirmed it. YES, you heard me right. I decided to give therapy a try and I have to say, the grass is greener on this side. Don’t get me wrong, I am still a risk taker and still live life to the fullest. It’s hard to alter something you were born with. The only difference is now my risks are a little more calculated than before. I have so much more to lose now than I did ten or fifteen years ago.I guess the word I am looking for is “transition”.
While doing some research recently, I stumbled upon an article summarizing the four types of transition researchers S.B Merriam and Nancy K Schlossberg studied: anticipated, unanticipated, nonevent, and sleeper. Based on my findings, I think I am going through a sleeper transition. Shifting into a better lifestyle, becoming a better version of myself for my son, prioritizing peace of mind, being selfish with my time and money etc…. I know, I know, to some of you this is probably easy. However, awareness comes to different people at different times/stages of their lives. As I am going through this transition, I am learning a lot about myself and this process. Let me just say this, transition is not for the faint of heart. Transition is painful, it’s quiet and loud at the same time. Altering my life is accepting that which I never thought I would. Transition is making tough decisions because the next version of myself depends on it. Transition is shedding the tough skin that I spent years growing for the sake of my new wings. That process is very disturbing and confusing. However, I chose to believe that it is worth it.
As I press the “UPDATE BUTTON” not knowing what will come out of this, I also challenge you to give in to the urge of becoming a better version of yourself. Operating in your full potential, keeping an open mind for growth and welcoming every lesson that comes with this new phase. We are a few days away from 2024. What better time than now? So if you are like me experiencing that uneasy feeling, I encourage you to let go and let God. I am sure one day you’ll look back and shake your head, thanking yourself for accepting the challenge.
I may be the only person going through this. Nevertheless, if I am not, I would love to hear from you. Feel free to leave a comment. Also, don’t forget to share and subscribe for more updates.
